Unique Words

A while back when I was more or less clueless and bored, I did a little bit of graphic designing. Full disclosure the graphic designing did go well. I am not even sure why but every picture I played around with looked slightly off. There was just something that did not fit. I digress. I wanted to share a few unique words that really stuck with me and I coincidently created a design with that word on it.

This article is similar to the photo and drawing articles I wrote where I just wrote a bit about the backstory, the “artistic” process and what that picture meant to me. Just saying that this article is just about really random thoughts revolving around a picture with words on it.

There is no special order in which the pictures come. I just used the random generator and randomly picked three pictures from my graphic design word/definition collection. Again, no theme whatsoever and just completely random pictures with randomly related thoughts.

First things first. I did not take any of the following photos. I was just responsible for the words and the typography. The actual photographers are not credited since it was a long time ago and I forgot to write down the name since I never thought I needed the photographer’s name.

I am not sure why I constantly forget the fact that there is a word for the phenomenon of being aware of how little you´ll experience. Nevertheless, “onism” just really resonates with me. Don´t get me wrong but I swear I am just going to continue talking about how little of the world I will experience and completely ignore the fact that the word onism exist. I really like that word considering the fact that I am always saying that I barely know anything.

For me, it is just interesting how deep a word and its definition can go, since I could dissect that definition and say that no matter what you do you will only experience it how you experience it. You will never experience how others experience it. Considering that there are 7 billion people on earth, there is just so much not heard or lost in that huge crowd of voices. Of course, there is also not enough time to hear every one of those 7 billion stories. Imagine that every story lasts about one second (which is unrealistic), you will still spend roughly 222 years listening to stories. Hate to be the bearer of bad news, but that is currently impossible.

Then there is the actual world. To put it into perspective, there are 510.1 million km² of surface area that one can explore on earth. Honestly, it is just quite a shame that we spend most of our lives in the same place. However, even if you do manage to never spend time in the same place twice, you will never be able to explore the whole earth. The first reason, some places are not reachable with the current state of technological advancements.  Secondly, life is way too short for the whole earth.

I did not want to go that deep with this article, so I am just going to subtly change the topic. For the graphic design aspect, I did not pay that much attention. I just choose a font, which I thought, fit quite nicely with the background and the words. The colours are just from the sunset. I just thought I could play into the blue-orange contrast since it just looks so beautiful. I guess one thing people should know about me is that when it comes to art I just do what looks best and not what is most difficult or detailed.

I found this word so relatable since I struggle to get out of bed whether it is due to the lack of motivation or I just do not want to wake up from an amazing dream. Some other days it is also simply because I am still too sleepy to stand up or it is too cold to get out of bed. There are multiple reasons for not getting out of bed in the morning.

Even if that word is so relatable, I still do not use that word to describe my state of mind in the morning. Maybe it is because in the morning I can´t speak comprehensibly and I would only use common words since they don´t take that much brainpower. If you haven´t guessed it by now, I am not a morning person.

For the background, I just found that image that describes me in the morning perfectly. In the morning I would just bury my head underneath the pillows and blankets and hope that I can go back to sleep again. The font, in my opinion, looks a bit clumsy-ish and I just feel as if perfectly represents my morning mindset. Not completely neat but organized nonetheless.

Fun fact: I already posted a picture with Dysania on my Instagram account back in December of 2020 when I just started my Aurelia J Hunter Instagram account. That picture does not look anything like this design, for multiple reasons I do not want to get into. Instead, I wanted to write about the backstory of my Instagram account.

Back in December of 2020, I started my Aurelia J Hunter Instagram account but it was not for my blog. I did not know I would use that Instagram account for my blog one day, since back then I did not know I would start a blog. Honestly, I wanted to start a business since I was so worried and lost about what is going to happen. Now I have a blog, not a business. Past me would be disappointed but I would want to tell her that she is going to be all right and there is nothing to worry about. However, even present me finds it hard to believe that it is going to all right since there is just so much.

Now I am less lost and figuring out a few things since it would be best to sort out one´s personal life before one takes a big step by starting a business. Not saying that starting a business is completely off the table since I still would certainly want to start a business but right now, that project is postponed until I have everything figured out. I mean I am slightly stressed since it just feels as if time is running out to start a business. This brings me to the next word.

Honestly, I am a “native” German speaker but I swear I never heard anyone say that word before. The reason that I put native in quotation marks is just simply because my German is below average for a native speaker. I am not proud of it but I do not want to fix it either since I am not quite sure what I need to fix in the first place. I digress.

One can take the word Torschlusspanik and split it into individual parts. Torschlusspanik consists of the three words “Tor”, “Schluss” and “Panik”. Tor in this case means gate but in football (or soccer as Americans call it) tor means goal. Schluss simply means close and Panik means panic. Together it would mean something along the lines of gate closure panic or something similar to that. It is just fascinating to me that one can take words to create new words.

This word somehow affects my day-to-day life/behaviour or at least how the meaning of that word affects my life/behaviour. I am an anxious procrastinator. In the back of my head, I know that the sooner I start to build a business or start a career, the further I will be in life (whatever that is supposed to mean). So many people made me feel as if I don´t do something in my childhood or adolescence, I will never get a chance in the future. The passage of time is natural but it also makes me quite anxious. Constantly I feel as if opportunities are passing and I will never going to get anything like those opportunities again.

Many people have told me to enjoy my life but I can´t really enjoy it if I know I won´t achieve what I want. In order to achieve what I want, I cannot take time to enjoy life but if I achieve what I want I could finally enjoy life. However, when will I achieve what I want? Honestly, it is a vicious cycle that I need to break before it tears me down. Wow, that got a bit dark. I am just going to move on to the conclusion now so I don´t fall further into that rabbit hole. 

When I was writing this article, the unique words are always autocorrected by the spellcheck program on my computer. Honestly, I am not sure if I spelt the words right or wrong. However, I am sure that those words exist … to a certain extent. I mean a word exists if someone has invented it, right? Those words are unique just simply because we do not use them in our day-to-day conversations. Honestly, it is also a bit hard to use those words in ordinary conversations since those words are just really specific and can only be used in very limited situations. 

Writing this article was fun. Honestly, I was just a bit lazy and did not want to write about another childhood trauma or a philosophical rabbit hole. I am not sure why but I just can´t get myself to write a roughly two thousand word article. At first, I thought it was the infamous writer's block but turns out I just could not write anything proper about important issues and topics. Therefore, I am on a temporary philosophical hiatus. Not sure when that block will go away but I assume it will be soon since it was always like this. Either way, I always wanted to share a few of my favourite words and the thinking block just gave me a reason to do it.

I always loved learning new words. Not only in English but also in other languages. I guess you can even say that I have logolepsy. (Not sure if I used that word correctly.) This fascination with words is just an interesting distraction from … life. Honestly, my fascination with words is also explainable. I have mentioned it multiple times in my past articles, I just feel as if I can´t express myself properly. There is just something limiting about the regular words we have. Learning about new and unique words helps me feel more at ease knowing that I have the right words for the right occasion. Most people probably won´t know the definition of those new words I use in my conversations but that word makes for interesting conversations so I am not complaining.

Fun fact: When writing in general, I prefer to have a thesaurus nearby, since I often feel bored having to write the same words over and over again. It must be so much worse for you, the reader, since constantly reading the same word repeatedly is sleep-inducing. At least it is for me. Interesting pieces of writing are only interesting if the authors spice it up a bit and make it interestingly different. Moreover, I just don´t want to be a writer who has a limited vocabulary and only use a few phrases. A piece will look so bland if the majority of words are recurring frequently.

Finally, I ran out of things I want to write about… Well… I will probably do this again sometime soon. Till then…